mariah

Green Day has a song for every emotion.

she prays to the same piece of mind each day

hoping for some kind of distinctive change 

but none yet.

she’s only been with one man

and lays down beside him each night

but there’s no rest. 

her mind is in a war

a hopeless battle between safe and happy,

an endless quest for more.

she clenches her fists and finds herself asking the same arid question,

“is it really worth it?”

somewhere, far beyond her mind, the answer comes to her, taunting 

“no, no, no” 

not-really-so-secret secret: i’m narcissistic

if your boyfriend makes you a playlist and the first song’s first line is ‘it’s you that i adore, you’ll always be my whore’ you should probably question him

but probably not

All maggots have to die sometime. I’ll rest with a smirk on my face till your time comes. The fear of blood stains on my new shirt won’t hold me back, oh no, the contentment of your demise is pushing me forward with the strength of a thousand fucking trains. You were right to fear me.  

What is a soul?

A soul is nothing more than a hole inside of your chest. A growing emptiness that never stops begging. “Fill me, make me complete,” it screams. You try and you try again but the screaming never stops. The longing never ceases. Each heart you consume only makes the hole grow bigger, the screaming, louder. 

Soon, the hole swallows you and you no longer feel anything but the sinister presence of hollowness. 

It controls your body, your thoughts, your blood flow. To kill the screaming is to kill the soul. To kill the soul is to kill yourself. It is then, and only then, that you can rest. 

A burden. That is what a soul is. 

i wake up hungover on a hardwood floor from a dream about how your dress hangs off of your little breasts 

i’d rather be dead then call this ‘how i lost your respect’

but, god bless, or get neglected 

& i’ll see you when the sun sets east, 

don’t forget me. 

sometimes i burn my hair just because you liked it so much 

i was very sad on my birthday because the one person i wanted to tell me happy birthday didn’t :( imy